My book is actually coming along okay - chapter nine is in the process of being finished right now. Does that sound good enough? Hopefully. I want to get the draft finished by Christmas at the most; do you think that's a bit ridiculous? Because now that I'm a junior, after all, school's getting a bit hectic. PSATs this Wednesday, but not at my high school unfortunately. They take place at the Valley on Saturday, which is unfortunately when I cannot attend due to my cousin James's wedding, therefore I have to take it at Creskill on the twelfth. Joy on Earth. Carrie and I were supposed to take it together because her cousin's wedding is Saturday too, but she's taking it in Park Ridge now with Janie. Not fair. I have to be alone, as usual.
You know what I realized? If I don't talk to this boy soon, I'm going to regret not speaking him for the rest of my life. It's going to haunt me - the big "what if" question. Are you picking up what I'm putting down? Because everybody keeps saying that to me: "You'll never know what could have happened if you don't talk to him now." I just don't know when the right time is, if there's a right time. Maybe I'm just being a stupid derp and fate says that we're never supposed to have a conversation in our lives. Besides, he doesn't take any interest to me at all, so why bother?
Also, there's this 'drama' that's come up with this other girl and my friends. The other girl - we'll call her Jay - is in fact my friend, and she's supposedly my other friends' friend, too. Does that make sense? I feel like half the things I say here are garbled jibber-jabber, but it does make enough sense.
Anywho, everyone was complaining about her last night when suddenly I was called out. "Well Chelby's the only one here who actually likes her." Hey, take it easy, there. Yeah, that may be true, but that doesn't mean that I don't get annoyed at her sometimes. Jay has these very strong qualities of my-way-or-the-highway, but that doesn't mean I don't love her. Because I do - she's been my friend for a while now, especially during lacrosse season! And I think she's hysterical, so talking about her like this with other people makes me feel bad. Even though I'm not actually saying anything.
But if I don't talk about her and stay her friend, then I'll be going against my other friends. Damn. I hate girls. They make everything so complicated. Can't we all just be bros?
Guess not. Everything's just up in the air.
You know what I realized? If I don't talk to this boy soon, I'm going to regret not speaking him for the rest of my life. It's going to haunt me - the big "what if" question. Are you picking up what I'm putting down? Because everybody keeps saying that to me: "You'll never know what could have happened if you don't talk to him now." I just don't know when the right time is, if there's a right time. Maybe I'm just being a stupid derp and fate says that we're never supposed to have a conversation in our lives. Besides, he doesn't take any interest to me at all, so why bother?
Also, there's this 'drama' that's come up with this other girl and my friends. The other girl - we'll call her Jay - is in fact my friend, and she's supposedly my other friends' friend, too. Does that make sense? I feel like half the things I say here are garbled jibber-jabber, but it does make enough sense.
Anywho, everyone was complaining about her last night when suddenly I was called out. "Well Chelby's the only one here who actually likes her." Hey, take it easy, there. Yeah, that may be true, but that doesn't mean that I don't get annoyed at her sometimes. Jay has these very strong qualities of my-way-or-the-highway, but that doesn't mean I don't love her. Because I do - she's been my friend for a while now, especially during lacrosse season! And I think she's hysterical, so talking about her like this with other people makes me feel bad. Even though I'm not actually saying anything.
But if I don't talk about her and stay her friend, then I'll be going against my other friends. Damn. I hate girls. They make everything so complicated. Can't we all just be bros?
Guess not. Everything's just up in the air.
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